dare to trust??
Oct 17th, 2008 by cheloyskee
“when you are dreaming of a broken heart..and
waking up is the hardest part..”
..in my playlist since last nite..
no worries people. i’m not heart broken or
anything. he he. i just miss listening to some of
my mp3s in my pc. and this one, by john meyer, was
given an intro where john said a few things about
the song– the condition that he wrote it, his
heart mostly.
he said that he wrote the song “..one rainy
morning in the far back corner of the studio…
its about when things go wrong with somebody..”
and he went on to say that “..you meet them in
your dreams..they are still alright. and that
moment when when you wake up, you realize- oh
yeah, she hates me.”
mayers’ lyrics spoke of a love lost. and a love
longed for. i guess a lot of us and have gone
through this scenario.. for some the loss has
brought them NOT to hope that things like these
happens twice.. it’s too good to hope for.
because by having LIVED it, and having LOSED it,
has given your heart the chance to experience how
the SHIFT (it could be PAIN for other ppl. or
LONELINESS for some..) , at times, immobilize you.
then suddenly life seems to stop.
then HOPE is far from your idea of living.
you go on with your life telling yourself, what is
the point of hoping when you’re not goin to have
IT for a long time anyway (whatever IT stands for
you).
for others, not goin to possess IT even.
and you go through life, busying yourself with the
mundane things of your own little world.
..convincing yourself that, Yes, this is life. and
it seems ok. and that you are happy.
but then, deep in your heart you know you are NOT.
coz each time you hear people say that they are
happy, (and you know that they really are), you
hated it. you resented it. coz, your heart,
unawaringly, beats for something that you want or
desire.
but life has trampled you right where it hurts the
most.
and you just couldn’t bring yourself to trust that
life will be good to you the next time IT comes
along (again whatever IT stands for you).
11:01 am
i don’t know why im writing this, btw.
usually i have a reason.. but today, i just don’t
have any.
i guess, personally, i know that these spoke of me
a lot of times in the past…and it could speak of
me in my future.. but, on those times (past) it
taught me that there is more to life than these.
and i guess im in a constant search of that ‘MORE’
in life..
and so far i’m finding glimpses of it… in the
most unusual place…
very unusual places…=)
i’m HOPING, and praying that you would too.
