rAMBLINGS of A pASSION8 hEART

i can’t barely make out a squeak last week.

i had a hard time making out words out of my mouth. usually it’s mostly air instead of words. i went on like this for 4 days, mouthing words, and doing ‘charades’ to communicate… stomping and hizzing works well too! Especially if you are a teacher. hehe

it was frustrating at the beginning. but as i just sit, and surrender to nature’s call of being SILENT, i realize that it was comforting.

comforting because….

-i can just watch people.

-i don’t feel the need to fill in the silence.

-i can just resort to a head shake, a point on the throat…. and a smile in exchange of a reply to a question.

-i canNOT retort back when people tease me. (that’s comforting..atleast we won’t end up fighting. haha)

-i can use SIGN LANGUAGE, though. resorting to Punching a person on the arm sends the exact signal that if ONE still wants to see TOMORROW, ONE has to WATCH OUT. (comforting? yes, because i don’t need to beat the hell out of a person and shout at the same time. No one will notice. hekhek

-i can just let out a blow of air in response to a question in a fonecall..

-and an EXTRA big blow of my breath to a ‘get-well-soon’ remark. (sign languages obviously don’t work.hehe)

i can go on and on on how nice it is NOT to have a voice. but there is one thing i miss during those times….